I could have sat down to write this post and had it been all cheery and positive vibes but what I am really going to give you is the nitty gritty, the meat and potatoes about how someone’s real life goes. 2019 was a mix bag of emotions. It really was the year that forced me to become better, more soft and allow myself to heal and to just be sad. Sadness is not an emotion that gets talked about. It is sort of taboo and society doesn’t like anyone to be sad. The reality is that we are all sad at one time or another and it is perfectly fine to be so.
The highlight reel goes a little something like this:
January- Moved out of a home, back to my hometown (only 20 minutes away) after sharing it with my ex husband.
February through May- Spent most of my time traveling for work and a new relationship.
June/July- Flew for the last time to Texas and made a huge transition of ending long distance for us to live together.
August- Lost my job and ended a career that I was dying to get out of. God made that choice for me. Started a new adventure and opened my own business.
September- Daniella started a new school.
October – Daniella decided not to dress up for Halloween. So, I guess you could say that’s a life transition. Got a new job to learn a whole new industry.
November- I turned 34. We moved into a bigger house, which we love. Thanksgiving was spent with rekindled “family”.
December- My “sister” who I have known since I was 12 went to be with the Lord after her lifetime fight of Cystic Fibrosis and juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis. Our teen boy went to Texas for Christmas and brought back his sister for a week.
In between all of that, there has been tears shed, no appearance of the gym, struggling with food and mental health and everything in between. Friends, this year rocked me. This year was a year that forced my growth and forced me to get out of my box.
2020 is bound to be the same because no matter what my goals are, life is going to trip me up. The focus must be to grow and keep learning. That is what I intend to do. And while I am loving on myself and taking time for the things that it needs, I also recognize that I need to be more mindful of the health that it needs. I have scheduled my yearly things and I am hoping to have a starting point.
Friends, be kind to yourself. Love yourself to know what you need and when you need it. And in the midst of everything, be kind to others and hold their hands.
all things kal 
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